I dedicate this blog to Kaitlyn Denise. (:


I am well aware that it has been the entire summer since i have updated my blog and i am not going to give any excuses for the summer, but i will give an excuse for this upcoming senior year! :) Mannnn..this year is going to be insane! Getting out at 10:30, hanging with friends, writing endless amounts of essays, applying for colleges, doing the whole shibang. It may be crazy, but i am already in love with it. The coolest thing about my senior year thus far has been the growth of our school's Bible Club. We have seen such an amazing amount of new comers that we know only God could do that! We hope to have manyyy more come for our next week, Hook Week. Another amazing part of senior year is the friend aspect. There is something special about the friendships this year. I think it is because of the realization that this may be the last time for a while that we are all together in one place. It makes each day something special. I am in love with that feeling.

Besides senior year, I am dealing with teaching dance, taking dance classes, and auditioning for dance majors. Dance dance dance. (: just the way i like it. I will be teaching 3 classes this year, taking them everyday, and auditioning for at least 3 dance programs. Hopefully they all go well and i continue to win people over with dance.

Senior year, Dance, and the last issue Love. Hmm..what an interesting love. It's nearing fall time, so new relationship are popping up just as quickly as the flower buds are dying. My brother proposed to his now fiancé yesterday. (: They are the happiest couple ever, and i am looking forward to my new sister in law! But, besides that one relationship, i am kind of dealing with love problems of my own. I have discovered a new fear, that of ending up alone. I am trying to hold on to things in my past to ensure i don't end up that way, but i am steadily learning that by holding on to those things, i may be passing up new things. I want more than anything for God to say, "Hey, your man is right over there and you will meet him right at this time." But what fun would that be. :P I have to learn to trust that God has that special someone, and he will lead me to him.

I think others are having a similar problem to mine. I think they crave a friendship in hopes that one day it will lead to more, knowing in the back of their mind that this friendship just hurts them and ruins their day. I think they need to let go because he will never want what they want. I think they don't know how much i love them and how much i want what is best for them, and it's not what they want. They will understand what i am talking about. :)

Overall, life is great, only when i live everyday for him though.

-emily

2 weeks..

The past two weeks i have been in Birmingham, AL. :) the only words i have to describe my past two weeks- AMAZING! i am sure there is a stronger word, but i don't have it right now!

I got to come home to my best friend every night. I got to tell her good night every night. I got to make fun of her everyday! :) I got to eat with her, bond with her, tell her EVERYTHING right when it happened. ahhh. how i have missed her and i need her in my life much much more! :)

I also got to go to my old church i went to when i attended school there. This was a spark that just set me on fire for God again. The first wednesday i went, the whole hour and a half was a worship service! EXACTLY what i needed right then. I jumped up and down, danced, sang at the top of my lungs, and worshiped my amazing God the whole time. AH! it was such a mind blowing experience that i can neverr doubt the feeling of my God again. The next wednesday was a service with a message. The youth minister spoke about being in God's will. He made something that is normally so difficult so easy. The only thing we have to do to be in His will is allow him in our life. Factor him in in our decisions, put him before everyone, and let him have control of our lives. We never walk alone in his will, he is alwayss there telling us, "Okay, take this step, now go to the right. now walk straight..no no no. stop right here." God is amazing and all I need in my life. More than what i need actually.

Another AWESOME thing happened while i was in B-ham. :) I got offered a chance to dance at a church in Birmingham! :D we learned a combination in liturgical class and the teacher liked the way we (Becca Fox and i) did the dance and she asked us to dance it in front of her church!! :D that is a huge deal for me seeing as down here where i am from, dancing in church is like cursing in it! it isn't allowed! This is a huge step for my ministry and what i want to do! God is working already and all I had to do was dance. :)

Overall life is great and I hope it is for everyone reading this. :)

<3
Emily Elizabeth.

Faith.

This week, God has been showing me the meaning of truly trusting him. He has been moving things around in my heart and I must say I am so glad that his presence is so Vivid.

Last night was another rough night..not that anything bad happened, but that nothing happened at all. I have problem with just sitting...being still...wasting time...having nothing to do...being bored. I always feel like I need to be doing something, anything. Lately, I have felt that I need to be doing more for God. I need to be out telling someone about God's love, or out helping that person who can't mow their lawn, or out giving hope to that person who lost his last glimpse of hope yesterday...I just don't know how to do it. (or that may be my excuse for not actually doing) I don't know where to start, how to initiate the conversation, how to grab their attention..i just don't know a lot of things. I have been feeling really down about that and last night, I hit bottom.

I picked up my computer and I web chatted with a friend, born in Hong Kong, lived in Australia and now dancing with Boston Ballet. He is a firm believer and his love for God radiates out of him so clearly! I spoke with him and he told me to watch THIS I am warning you, that is a 2 hour video, you can watch just the message and it will be AMAZING, but the worship makes me wonder what happened to it in America. This video gave me so much hope that my burnt out fire for God was restored in one night. God was clearly speaking through the speaker and I learned more and received more hope from this two hour video than I have had in a veryy long time. I recommend watching this if you find the time, if not...here is the major thing.

-Go up another level, right around the corner is another devil..
-If you are under attack you are not doing something bad..you are doing something right.
-God has a strategy for everything in your life.
-Sometimes Faith means to be still, do nothing, know he is God, and know he can fix ANYTHING going on in your life.
-God may not move in lightning and thunder, but in a small voice..you won't hear it if you are stressed..RELAX

This video made me realize I don't always have to be doing something, I have to be willing to do whatever and he will use me as He pleases and in the time that he wants.

God is awesome..it's that simple.
He excites me Every Single Day!!
I love him.

-Emily

Summerr.

Oh how that title makes me feel good! Summer is coming up and I can't imagine a better start than with
that kid. yes, her. She is my absolute best friend in the entire world. She is the only who can make me do anytime of any day. She is a non believer but she amazes me everyday with her caring heart. Her heart is bigger than most of my Believing friends. She is beautiful on the inside out with the same mistakes and failures as me.

Anyways, enough about my rant about Naomi Joy..I am going to see her Friday as i travel to my 2nd home of Birmingham! :D I am going to ASFA's graduation to see all my little babies grow up. hehe! I am going to get to see Katlyn Marie as well and the beginning of my summer will be so very official then. :)

This week has been a long one that has taught me a lot about my relationships, which ones are important and which ones aren't. I am glad to have the good relationships in my life and ready to nix the bad ones that only get me down. I did a bible study and the major thing that stuck out was the fact that our only hope is God. That's it. I can't have hope in any humans, family, friends, strangers, etc..they will always let you down. The only who can keep his promises is God and mannn how I need a best friend like, faithful.

-God, thanks for being the BEST best friend I could ever imagine. && sending me the best human friend here..i love her. :)

<3 Em Higg.

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Here it is! The follow up i promised, but before i start, Here That is a man of genious! An amazing muscian and artist. :))

Anyways, so I have always heard "bad rehearsal means good performance," well, it is true! I had such a terrible rehearsal, but the performance was so great! My little girls i teach were absolutley gorgeous on that stage and even though they were little they filled that stage up and they owned it! :) My dances went well as well. I nailed my solo part and I did it with a smile on my stressed face. :P overall, the performance was fun and i am going to miss it this summer.
So there is the Recap!

Moving on.. Today, I hung out with one of my friends. She is such an awesome person! She is so sweet and cares so much more for others than she does herself. She was one of the main people i looked forward to being with once I came home from ASFA. She is a blessing in my life and I am so glad to consider her a best friend. ANYWAYSS ha. I hung out with her today and we were talking about love interests. She was telling me how she wants to marry someone who she has known for all of her life and I told her how I do not want that at all! She is one of those types of people who make list for EVERYTHING so she proceeded to get a sheet of paper out and make a list of pros and cons for 2 guys she has interest in. She showed me even more today how great it is to be loved by God and how I don't have to worry about any of that because i know he has it all in his hands. God, thank you for that! && to my friend, let go.





<3

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Today was a pretty terrible day.
I failed my AP US History test today, miserably. it wasn't even funny, i can't wait to get that score back in July, i will let you all know what i made.
I then went to dance, where i thought everything was going to be better......wrong!
i did terrible today at dress rehearsal. my mind must have been with someone else because i went on stage and completely forgot my entire part. that's not like me at all. i then proceeded to mess up the remaining three dances. i could not pull myself together.

on the way home, i felt miserable, like i shouldn't even call myself a dancer! I then turned on the song mirror by barlowgirl and i remembered why i dance. I found myself dancing in the car, crying, and praying to God all at the same time (surprised i didn't wreck and die.) i was dancing my anger that was caused by dancing out!

that incident just reminded me that i can dance any emotion out, whatever it may be. I felt 100x's better when i arrived home. i was more tired from dancing in my car then i was from dancing on the stage today. i prayed and asked God to be with my legs and arms tomorrow and to help them do what they are supposed to do!!

hopefully my performance tomorrow will be better.
i will let you guys know!

:)
-Emily

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