This week, God has been showing me the meaning of truly trusting him. He has been moving things around in my heart and I must say I am so glad that his presence is so Vivid.
Last night was another rough night..not that anything bad happened, but that nothing happened at all. I have problem with just sitting...being still...wasting time...having nothing to do...being bored. I always feel like I need to be doing something, anything. Lately, I have felt that I need to be doing more for God. I need to be out telling someone about God's love, or out helping that person who can't mow their lawn, or out giving hope to that person who lost his last glimpse of hope yesterday...I just don't know how to do it. (or that may be my excuse for not actually doing) I don't know where to start, how to initiate the conversation, how to grab their attention..i just don't know a lot of things. I have been feeling really down about that and last night, I hit bottom.
I picked up my computer and I web chatted with a friend, born in Hong Kong, lived in Australia and now dancing with Boston Ballet. He is a firm believer and his love for God radiates out of him so clearly! I spoke with him and he told me to watch THIS I am warning you, that is a 2 hour video, you can watch just the message and it will be AMAZING, but the worship makes me wonder what happened to it in America. This video gave me so much hope that my burnt out fire for God was restored in one night. God was clearly speaking through the speaker and I learned more and received more hope from this two hour video than I have had in a veryy long time. I recommend watching this if you find the time, if not...here is the major thing.
-Go up another level, right around the corner is another devil..
-If you are under attack you are not doing something bad..you are doing something right.
-God has a strategy for everything in your life.
-Sometimes Faith means to be still, do nothing, know he is God, and know he can fix ANYTHING going on in your life.
-God may not move in lightning and thunder, but in a small voice..you won't hear it if you are stressed..RELAX
This video made me realize I don't always have to be doing something, I have to be willing to do whatever and he will use me as He pleases and in the time that he wants.
God is awesome..it's that simple.
He excites me Every Single Day!!
I love him.
-Emily
Monday, May 24, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Summerr.
Oh how that title makes me feel good! Summer is coming up and I can't imagine a better start than with
that kid. yes, her. She is my absolute best friend in the entire world. She is the only who can make me do 
anytime of any day. She is a non believer but she amazes me everyday with her caring heart. Her heart is bigger than most of my Believing friends. She is beautiful on the inside out with the same mistakes and failures as me.
Anyways, enough about my rant about Naomi Joy..I am going to see her Friday as i travel to my 2nd home of Birmingham! :D I am going to ASFA's graduation to see all my little babies grow up. hehe! I am going to get to see Katlyn Marie as well and the beginning of my summer will be so very official then. :)
This week has been a long one that has taught me a lot about my relationships, which ones are important and which ones aren't. I am glad to have the good relationships in my life and ready to nix the bad ones that only get me down. I did a bible study and the major thing that stuck out was the fact that our only hope is God. That's it. I can't have hope in any humans, family, friends, strangers, etc..they will always let you down. The only who can keep his promises is God and mannn how I need a best friend like, faithful.
-God, thanks for being the BEST best friend I could ever imagine. && sending me the best human friend here..i love her. :)
<3 Em Higg.
that kid. yes, her. She is my absolute best friend in the entire world. She is the only who can make me do anytime of any day. She is a non believer but she amazes me everyday with her caring heart. Her heart is bigger than most of my Believing friends. She is beautiful on the inside out with the same mistakes and failures as me. Anyways, enough about my rant about Naomi Joy..I am going to see her Friday as i travel to my 2nd home of Birmingham! :D I am going to ASFA's graduation to see all my little babies grow up. hehe! I am going to get to see Katlyn Marie as well and the beginning of my summer will be so very official then. :)
This week has been a long one that has taught me a lot about my relationships, which ones are important and which ones aren't. I am glad to have the good relationships in my life and ready to nix the bad ones that only get me down. I did a bible study and the major thing that stuck out was the fact that our only hope is God. That's it. I can't have hope in any humans, family, friends, strangers, etc..they will always let you down. The only who can keep his promises is God and mannn how I need a best friend like, faithful.
-God, thanks for being the BEST best friend I could ever imagine. && sending me the best human friend here..i love her. :)
<3 Em Higg.
Tuesday, May 11, 2010
फोल्लो उप
Here it is! The follow up i promised, but before i start, Here That is a man of genious! An amazing muscian and artist. :))
Anyways, so I have always heard "bad rehearsal means good performance," well, it is true! I had such a terrible rehearsal, but the performance was so great! My little girls i teach were absolutley gorgeous on that stage and even though they were little they filled that stage up and they owned it! :) My dances went well as well. I nailed my solo part and I did it with a smile on my stressed face. :P overall, the performance was fun and i am going to miss it this summer.
So there is the Recap!
Moving on.. Today, I hung out with one of my friends. She is such an awesome person! She is so sweet and cares so much more for others than she does herself. She was one of the main people i looked forward to being with once I came home from ASFA. She is a blessing in my life and I am so glad to consider her a best friend. ANYWAYSS ha. I hung out with her today and we were talking about love interests. She was telling me how she wants to marry someone who she has known for all of her life and I told her how I do not want that at all! She is one of those types of people who make list for EVERYTHING so she proceeded to get a sheet of paper out and make a list of pros and cons for 2 guys she has interest in. She showed me even more today how great it is to be loved by God and how I don't have to worry about any of that because i know he has it all in his hands. God, thank you for that! && to my friend, let go.
<3
Anyways, so I have always heard "bad rehearsal means good performance," well, it is true! I had such a terrible rehearsal, but the performance was so great! My little girls i teach were absolutley gorgeous on that stage and even though they were little they filled that stage up and they owned it! :) My dances went well as well. I nailed my solo part and I did it with a smile on my stressed face. :P overall, the performance was fun and i am going to miss it this summer.
So there is the Recap!
Moving on.. Today, I hung out with one of my friends. She is such an awesome person! She is so sweet and cares so much more for others than she does herself. She was one of the main people i looked forward to being with once I came home from ASFA. She is a blessing in my life and I am so glad to consider her a best friend. ANYWAYSS ha. I hung out with her today and we were talking about love interests. She was telling me how she wants to marry someone who she has known for all of her life and I told her how I do not want that at all! She is one of those types of people who make list for EVERYTHING so she proceeded to get a sheet of paper out and make a list of pros and cons for 2 guys she has interest in. She showed me even more today how great it is to be loved by God and how I don't have to worry about any of that because i know he has it all in his hands. God, thank you for that! && to my friend, let go. 
<3
Friday, May 7, 2010
Remider
Today was a pretty terrible day.
I failed my AP US History test today, miserably. it wasn't even funny, i can't wait to get that score back in July, i will let you all know what i made.
I then went to dance, where i thought everything was going to be better......wrong!
i did terrible today at dress rehearsal. my mind must have been with someone else because i went on stage and completely forgot my entire part. that's not like me at all. i then proceeded to mess up the remaining three dances. i could not pull myself together.
on the way home, i felt miserable, like i shouldn't even call myself a dancer! I then turned on the song mirror by barlowgirl and i remembered why i dance. I found myself dancing in the car, crying, and praying to God all at the same time (surprised i didn't wreck and die.) i was dancing my anger that was caused by dancing out!
that incident just reminded me that i can dance any emotion out, whatever it may be. I felt 100x's better when i arrived home. i was more tired from dancing in my car then i was from dancing on the stage today. i prayed and asked God to be with my legs and arms tomorrow and to help them do what they are supposed to do!!
hopefully my performance tomorrow will be better.
i will let you guys know!
:)
-Emily
I failed my AP US History test today, miserably. it wasn't even funny, i can't wait to get that score back in July, i will let you all know what i made.
I then went to dance, where i thought everything was going to be better......wrong!
i did terrible today at dress rehearsal. my mind must have been with someone else because i went on stage and completely forgot my entire part. that's not like me at all. i then proceeded to mess up the remaining three dances. i could not pull myself together.
on the way home, i felt miserable, like i shouldn't even call myself a dancer! I then turned on the song mirror by barlowgirl and i remembered why i dance. I found myself dancing in the car, crying, and praying to God all at the same time (surprised i didn't wreck and die.) i was dancing my anger that was caused by dancing out!
that incident just reminded me that i can dance any emotion out, whatever it may be. I felt 100x's better when i arrived home. i was more tired from dancing in my car then i was from dancing on the stage today. i prayed and asked God to be with my legs and arms tomorrow and to help them do what they are supposed to do!!
hopefully my performance tomorrow will be better.
i will let you guys know!
:)
-Emily
Tuesday, May 4, 2010
Yes, i know i know, this blog is long overdo, but i haven't had much to talk about until, well, now! so here it goes!
This weekend, i went to the good ole city of Birmingham! i got to see my best friend Naomi Joy and it was a refresher. I have missed her more than words can describe, and being 3 and a half hours away from here is not my idea of awesome. but it is what it is.
Anyways, while in Birmingham i saw
, yes, the Rocket Summer. :) Bryce Avary is an INCREDIBLE musician. He can play all the instruments in the songs you hear himself and actually showed us that this weekend. It was so much fun being with Naomi Joy and watching the Rocket Summer.
Sunday, i came back to watch my love Krissy sing her songs she made up at church. They of course were BEAUTIFUL and her voice just blows me away everytime! Also playing was Blake who played his own songs as well! While they were singing, i could completely feel God yelling at me! it was like he was screaming
through one of those things! I couldn't have imagined it being any louder.
He put it on my heart and he put it on there hard that this is what i am supposed to do. I am supposed to do this Non-Traditional Arts ministry and i am supposed to do it big.
Later that night, i was talking to some friends about this pounding at my heart and my friend Blake suggested starting off small with local bands. I considered it, but I felt that tug at my heart, and i knew, starting off small was not an option. When this ministry, whatever it may be, starts off, it is going to start off with a BANG!
I went home and started praying. begging for God to hear my prayers of confusion. He did, only he made me 20x more confused! I was talking to God about this ministry and how i know i am supposed to do it, but how i was SOO very confused on how to start, when to start, where to start, and frankly, what this ministry even is! When i thought i couldn't get anymore confused, i got so frustrated i got on facebook...
I noticed i had a picture comment.....
This picture comment led to a friend of mine telling me that she has some major connections with a pretty big band! She told me that the lead singer and her were pretty good friends, and she has hung out with this band before.. As hard as i had been praying about this ministry and doing it big, the chances of this being a coincident is present, but i think it is little to none. Just when i thought i could not get anymore confused!
So i am asking you guys for prayers.. I don't know where this thing is going, but i know its going places. Prayers would be awesomee! also, names for this very blurry ministry would be awesome as well.. :))
Matthew 25:14-30
-Emily
This weekend, i went to the good ole city of Birmingham! i got to see my best friend Naomi Joy and it was a refresher. I have missed her more than words can describe, and being 3 and a half hours away from here is not my idea of awesome. but it is what it is.
Anyways, while in Birmingham i saw
, yes, the Rocket Summer. :) Bryce Avary is an INCREDIBLE musician. He can play all the instruments in the songs you hear himself and actually showed us that this weekend. It was so much fun being with Naomi Joy and watching the Rocket Summer. Sunday, i came back to watch my love Krissy sing her songs she made up at church. They of course were BEAUTIFUL and her voice just blows me away everytime! Also playing was Blake who played his own songs as well! While they were singing, i could completely feel God yelling at me! it was like he was screaming
through one of those things! I couldn't have imagined it being any louder. He put it on my heart and he put it on there hard that this is what i am supposed to do. I am supposed to do this Non-Traditional Arts ministry and i am supposed to do it big.
Later that night, i was talking to some friends about this pounding at my heart and my friend Blake suggested starting off small with local bands. I considered it, but I felt that tug at my heart, and i knew, starting off small was not an option. When this ministry, whatever it may be, starts off, it is going to start off with a BANG!
I went home and started praying. begging for God to hear my prayers of confusion. He did, only he made me 20x more confused! I was talking to God about this ministry and how i know i am supposed to do it, but how i was SOO very confused on how to start, when to start, where to start, and frankly, what this ministry even is! When i thought i couldn't get anymore confused, i got so frustrated i got on facebook...
I noticed i had a picture comment.....This picture comment led to a friend of mine telling me that she has some major connections with a pretty big band! She told me that the lead singer and her were pretty good friends, and she has hung out with this band before.. As hard as i had been praying about this ministry and doing it big, the chances of this being a coincident is present, but i think it is little to none. Just when i thought i could not get anymore confused!
So i am asking you guys for prayers.. I don't know where this thing is going, but i know its going places. Prayers would be awesomee! also, names for this very blurry ministry would be awesome as well.. :))
Matthew 25:14-30
-Emily
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